WE LEFT CUSTARD Pie on the mountain for the medics to find, put a call through to the mountain rangers in Welshpool to look out for the fugitives, if they ever made it through the pass, and drove back to town. The snow was falling thickly and the gritting lorries were already out.
‘This stuff about the cannibalism up on the mountain,’ said Llunos. ‘It was crap.’
‘Yeah, I’ve sort of worked that out. Mrs Llantrisant made it up to smear Mrs Bligh-Jones’s name. She knew she’d been seeing Herod and was jealous.
Llunos nodded. ‘Mrs Tolpuddle broke her silence about the mission yesterday. It seems they were out on a routine sweep, and Mrs Bligh-Jones claimed she had received a distress signal. No one else did but they went and had a look. They wanted to turn back, but Bligh-Jones kept pushing them on and on; it was as if she knew what she was looking for. Then up above the snow-line they see the ‘Thing’. Which we now know to have been Herod. Or Mr Dippetty-doo. That’s when it happened.’
‘When what happened?’
‘The thing that made Mrs Cefnmabws flee in horror. It wasn’t cannibalism, it was something else. Mrs Bligh-Jones threw off her clothes and made love to Mr Dippetty-doo in the snow.’
‘I expect that would make me flee, too.’
‘I’m pleased in a way, though,’ said Llunos. ‘I’ve never had a lot of time for Mrs Bligh-Jones – always thought she was a bit toffee-nosed; but I could never really picture her as someone who would eat her bowling-partner.’
‘Don’t be too sure,’ I teased him. ‘All this tells us is that she didn’t; not that she wouldn’t have!’
He threw me a dark, irritated glance. He was in a sombre, reflective mood and didn’t welcome my joking.
‘So Mrs Llantrisant thought up this thing with Calamity just to get back at you?’
‘Looks that way. She obviously thought it was the best way to hurt me, and as usual she was spot on.’
Llunos shook his head in wonder and disbelief.
We reached the crest of Penglais Hill and suddenly, as it always did, that familiar sight of Aberystwyth appeared in the valley below like a faithful dog, making the heart glad: skeins of smoke drifting across the slate roofs, the battered old pier and the pointy turrets of the old college, all set against the backdrop of a dove-grey sea.
‘I still can’t get my head round it all, you know,’ said Llunos. ‘Brainbocs coming back and all that. Making a love potion.’
‘I think it will probably take us all a good few years to get used to that one.’
‘I haven’t even got my head round the last caper, yet. The flood.’
‘Nor me.’
‘Where do you want me to drop you?’
‘I need to go to Trefechan.’ He put his foot down and drove on, past the railway station. I took out the key to my office and put it down next to the gear stick. ‘When you get back to the police station, give this to Myfanwy and tell her to go and wait for me at my place. Tell her I’ll be about an hour, and I’ll explain when I see her.’
Llunos nodded. ‘Don’t suppose there would be any point asking what’s so important that you have to go to Trefechan at this time of night?’
‘Thought not. If it was me, all I would be able to think of right now would be Myfanwy.’
‘It’s all I’ve thought about all day. But I’ve waited three years. I can wait another hour.’
We drove past the station and I cast an anxious glance over at the clock. 11.40. Still time. Just.
‘And make sure someone takes Calamity home. Tell her I’ll see her at the office tomorrow, business as usual … This will do fine.’
He nodded and pulled up just before Trefechan Bridge.
I opened the door and Llunos put a gently restraining arm on my forearm. ‘Imagine if they did succeed in making a love potion like that,’ he said with a strangely troubled look. ‘That made you fall in love with someone you didn’t like. It would be like rape, really, wouldn’t it?’ He shook his head slowly, pondering the implications. ‘We’d have to make a new law against it.’ Then he put out his hand and we shook.
*
I plodded wearily over Trefechan Bridge and along the river bank to the trailer park. The storm had gone completely now and, in its wake, an air of almost supernatural calm lay on the harbour. Even the odd car sounded distant and not quite real; on the silent air the delicate scent of the sea hung faintly, softer than the memory of rose petals.
The caravan was dark and still, and gave off the same fetid reek as last time. The door was ajar and I eased it open and crept furtively in, not knowing what to expect but prepared for anything. I tried the light switch inside the door but it wouldn’t work.
‘The power’s off.’ It was a girl’s voice, thick with pain and urgency, coming from somewhere in the darkness. ‘I suppose the bitch forgot to pay the bill.’ My eyes gradually became accustomed to the gloom and I made out the figure of someone standing in the middle of the caravan. It was Gretel. She was wearing something that shimmered even in the dark and enveloped her from knee to shoulder. It seemed to be a dress, perhaps made of taffeta or something.
‘I guess I had you fooled all along with my sackcloth and ashes stuff?’ She spoke in staccato gasps as if there was a strangler’s hands at her throat, or some deep, desperate pain inside her was squeezing out the last droplets of life.
‘It’s not hard to fool me,’ I said. ‘All you need is a jar of damson jam.’
Something glinted with a blue white light down by Gretel’s wrist. It was my gun, pointing at me. Gretel looked down at it and waggled it slightly.
‘Soon teach her to keep her filthy paws off my man.’
I nodded and said in the sort of voice you use to coax a frightened animal, ‘Yeah, you sure did that.’ I took a half-step towards her. Suddenly the words of Eeyore came back to me, about how death when it comes can often strike us as embarrassing, as stupid, even banal. How cruel, after all this time, now that Myfanwy was waiting for me back at my office, after all the myriad ways I could have died recently, for it to happen now. I put my hand out ever so gently. As if to a cat in a tree. ‘Come on,’ I said. ‘It’s all right.’
‘Thanks for letting me have the gun.’
‘I didn’t. You took it.’
‘How did you guess it was me?’
‘It wasn’t hard. That day Calamity asked for a heater, she said it was in the trunk, the key behind the picture. You were standing outside the door.’
She considered for a second, and said, ‘I’ve sent you a cheque.’
‘For what?’
‘For helping me find her. A deal’s a deal.
‘The agreement was to find the Dean not Judy Juice.’
‘I guess I should have read the small print.’ The voice was getting weaker and hoarser with a hint of a whine in it like a homesick dog.
‘I would have got the bitch, too! But the fucking thing jammed.’
She let out a tiny gasp, and swayed slightly like a felled tree about to collapse. The gun slipped out of her hand and clattered to the floor. It was then that I noticed in the corner of her mouth a thin dark trickle oozing and bubbling with her breathing. Transfixed by the sight I let my gaze drop and saw the handle of the ‘Come to Sunny Aberystwyth’ knife, stuck to her chest, just below where the heart should be. She let out a strange squeak and slid slowly to her knees, slumped against the cooker and stayed there between the cooker and the cupboard, wedged in by her own enormous weight. The blood in the corner of her mouth stopped frothing.
I stepped forward and put my finger under her chin and closed the ugly, gaping mouth. I didn’t care so much about her eyes, I couldn’t really see them. I could tell now that it was a taffeta gown, and she had a set of pearls and a brooch and various other trashy gewgaws. Only the hat was missing.
There was a rasping sound from the far end of the caravan, the sound of a match on the side of a box. A light hovered pale and gold for a second and then went out, replaced by the steadier flame of a candle. So acute had my senses become now in this near-perfect darkness that I could smell the smoke of the extinguished match. I took out my handkerchief and used it to pick up the gun.
‘It’s all right, you won’t need it,’ a man’s voice said. I walked up to him, sitting at the far end where I had sat with Judy Juice. The candle gave off a small halo of flickering gold that occasionally touched the edge of his face. It was Lester, the security guard.
‘Not much use pointing that at me,’ he said. ‘It’s jammed.’
‘It’s not jammed,’ I said. ‘She just didn’t know how to shoot.’
‘We both know that’s nonsense. But it doesn’t matter. I don’t intend causing any trouble. After I’ve smoked my cigarette I’ll call the police myself, if you like.’
‘And tell them what?’
‘That I killed that sack of shit down there in the taffeta dress.’
‘You did that for Judy?’
‘I don’t expect you to understand. You didn’t know her.’
‘Where is she?’
‘She’s gone. Where you and the other men in Aberystwyth can’t hurt her. Gone far from here to a place where she won’t be confronted every day by the terrible reminder of her mother’s cruel death.’
‘I thought she was an orphan.’
‘She was. Most of her life. But then she came to Aberystwyth and found a mother. And then saw her gunned down in the street a few months later.’
I gasped in the darkness. ‘Mrs Bligh-Jones was Judy Juice’s mother?’
‘You didn’t know? Why did you think she came to Aberystwyth in the first place? To live in this stinking caravan? She came to find her mother and I came because I couldn’t bear to be away from her. She got me this job, you know. I’d like to think it was because she needed to have me near. But I know it was just pity. All the same, it saved my life.’
‘The Raven never guessed who you were?’
‘I looked him in the eye and he never knew; I even threw him out on his backside.’
‘I thought the baby died on Pumlumon.’
‘That’s what Bligh-Jones told Herod. But it wasn’t true. No more than it was true that he was the father. It was born in the byre, but it didn’t die. She put it on the church steps and it got taken to the orphanage. Judy, my beautiful little Olivia Twist.’
I put the gun on the table. ‘You’re really going to tell the police you did it?’
‘Yes.’
‘You’d better wipe Judy’s prints off the handle of the knife then.’
‘I already have.’
I walked back up the caravan and out into the night, closing the door as I left. Behind in the darkness lay the corpse of a fat girl in taffeta, and a man calmly smoking a cigarette. A man known in Lampeter as Dean Morgan, head of the Faculty of Undertaking; the man who once boasted that his trade was death.
*
I was too tired to run but time was short. I managed to hail a cab on the main road and told him we had three minutes to get to the railway station. The streets were empty and we made it in two. I jumped out, thrusting too much money into his hand, and ran under the stone portal. The concourse was awash with that sharp white fluorescent light that hurts the eyes so much late at night. The lady was closing the buffet but I could see the train hadn’t left. The end of the last coach was butted up against the point where the rails stopped, squeezed against the buffers. The diesel far off in the night, panting like a horse, flexing muscle, aching to leave. Along the platform the long awning stretched out into the darkness, ancient ironwork still embossed with the initials of the Great Western region. The filmy panes of glass smeared with the accumulated generations of GWR soot; and coated with that exquisite essence that condenses in the eaves of railway stations: the distilled longings and sadness of all the travellers who have parted and departed, kissed and cried and anointed the spot with their hope. Railway stations at night: as romantic as the names of far-off towns on the long-wave radio dial; magical places dislocated in time that belong to night-wanderers; pilgrims and lovers; the lonely, the hopeful and the damned.
I searched madly for a coin to put in the platform-ticket machine, and the guard, seeing my plight and the desperation on my face, smiled and opened the gate. I ran down the platform. Beyond lay the lights of the engine sheds and the signal box, the lakes of dirty oil, the maze of lines, criss-crossing and gleaming like mercury spaghetti … And beyond that in the mauve autumn sky, a tangled necklace of stars.
A lone old woman in a black shawl walked up the platform pulling a small suitcase behind her. I reached her as she took a step up into the final compartment. She stopped and turned, one foot still in Aberystwyth, one foot in another world. The hat and shawl did little to disguise the liquid loveliness of Judy Juice.
She smiled, the faint smile of someone who expects to be disappointed and is at least pleased to be right.
‘I almost made it. One more step and I would have been there. I’m glad it’s you, though, and not a real cop. You know cops …’
‘They either lock you up or fuck you up.’
‘Is she dead?’
I nodded.
Judy shrugged sadly. ‘I suppose I should pretend to be sorry, but I’m not.’
‘The Dean says he did it.’
‘He always was a fool.’
The guard walked up the platform slamming the doors, holding a flag at the ready.
I picked up the suitcase and put it inside the train.
‘He must have thought you were worth it.’
‘I said he was a fool.’
‘I can understand him feeling like that.’
She grinned. ‘You’re sweet! Where were you when I was getting thrown out of college?’
‘Thanks for warning Calamity.’
‘Did she tell you that?’
‘No, she didn’t know who it was.’
‘Forget it, it was nothing.’
‘It was everything.’
She reached up and stroked the side of my face. ‘Nice kid, you take care of her.’
I took the crook of her arm and helped her up and closed the door. She slid the window down and leaned out.
‘You’re really going to let me go? I did it, you know. I killed her.’
‘I know. You had to.’
‘Does that make a difference?’
‘She took my gun, took it and wrote a note. That was no heat of the moment thing. Then she went round to your trailer with it. She would have killed you. If it hadn’t jammed you would be dead.’
‘You’re going to let the Dean take the punishment?’
‘As far as I’m concerned, only three people really know what happened in that caravan, and one of them is dead. I wasn’t there.’
‘Will they believe you?’
‘No.’
‘You think they’ll find me in Shrewsbury?’
‘Probably. But why stop there? The tracks go much further than that.’
‘Yeah, all the way to China so I’ve heard.’
The whistle blew and the train clunked as the engine took up the slack.
‘They’ll know you let me go – the people at the station have seen you.’
‘And a taxi driver.’
‘What will they do to you?’
I sighed. ‘They could do lots of things. If I’m lucky they will throw every book in the library at me. If that doesn’t satisfy them they’ll take away my licence. It won’t be the first time.’
‘You’re doing all this for me? Why?’
I grabbed her hand on the window-edge and squeezed it gently. ‘Let’s say it’s an old trick I learned from Ben Guggenheim.’
She leaned forward and kissed me and said, ‘He sounds like a nice guy, I’ll look out for him.’
The train jolted once more and then pulled out, gliding slowly, and then rapidly picking up speed. I stood there on the empty platform and thought of stories from long ago: of comets appearing in the skies when strange children were born; children with tails or covered in fur. And I thought a similar celestial marvel must have been seen once above Pumlumon, when Mrs Bligh-Jones lay down in a cow byre and a girl stranger than a changeling issued from her loins. No conjuror ever pulled anything more remarkable from a hat than that. The Bad Girl who saved Calamity’s life and said it was nothing. But I knew how far from being nothing it was; knew the cruel price she must have paid. Because only one person could have told her the location of the rendezvous with Calamity: a man she despised; who serenaded her mother and then slew her; and who finally must have enjoyed that night the only girl in Aberystwyth they said he could never have.
A fine mist began to form making the lamps along the track fizz like sparklers and in the distance, somewhere around Llanbadarn, the tail-lights of the train finally winked out. From the street outside came the sound of a car door slamming, followed by the staccato clatter of high heels on concrete. The urgent footfall of someone running for a train that has already gone. I turned and saw a lone girl racing towards me, like someone I once saw running across the dunes at Ynyslas. And then I caught a glimpse of the anguished look on her face and knew she had not come to catch a train but to stop one. ‘Oh Louie!’ she gasped, throwing her arms around me. ‘Louie! Please don’t go!’ I buried my face in the tangled skeins of Myfanwy’s hair and drank the scented darkness as the horn sounded from the distant hills and the night train to Shrewsbury raced eastwards, up that bright, silver ladder of hope.